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November Wrap-Up

Wrap Up

Well, I guess it’s no surprise that I didn’t get as much reading done as I wanted to in November, but as you already know two of my wisdom teeth got removed. Which was really no fun! I had the operation two weeks ago and it’s still kinda hard to chew so I hope it will get better until Christmas because it would be a shame to miss out on all the awesome food! XD

I still have about two weeks left until the holidays start, so I think I should be fine by then. 😀 (Always optimistic! 😛 ) Of course last month wasn’t any better when it came to illnesses and my reading schedule, considering all the trouble we went through I’m pretty happy about the 5 books I was able to read though. (I have no idea how I even managed to do this, but I won’t complain. *lol*)

And last but not least I started with my „How many books of my TBR 2019 can I pack into the last 4 weeks of the year“ challenge! (As it seems not all too many. XD) But the year isn’t over yet! 😉 Plus if you have any book recommendations don’t hesitate to send them my way. There are still 7 spots left on „My Book List 2020“ and I want to fill them with YOUR favourites! I already got a lot of suggestions but I decided to wait a little longer until I pull them from my bowl! I know we’re all busy and I wanted to make sure that everyone got a chance to take part in it. 😉

This said let’s finally get to my statistic!

Books read: 5

Pages read:  1.467 (Considering the hell this month was it’s actually pretty amazing that I managed to read all those pages! *lol*)

Average rating: 4 (There was one book I rated 2 stars and apparently that sets down the entire rating. XD)

Books that were on my reading list:  2 (2 from 2018 and none from 2019, Jeez! What did I do??)

November Reads: 

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We Are Okay: 5 Pfoten

This was definitely an unexpected 5 paws read! I never thought I’d love this book so much but the way this was written was just perfect. I loved how Nina LaCour captured the atmosphere and the feelings of Marin, how she was able to convey that profound sense of loss. Just amazing! ❤ If you want to read my full review you can do it here!

Batman: Nightwalker: 4 Pfoten

This was a really nice book to read in between. I kinda enjoyed the approach of Batman as a teen and it was nice to see not only the gloomy side of him but also the friendly one. I mean if you’re familiar with Batman you know that he’s portrayed as either the elusive rich ladies‘ man or the embittered misanthrope. Still, before he became Batman he was a teen like everyone else and I was glad that the book was able to convey that! XD Also: The mind games!!! ❤ Do I even have to say more? *lol*

Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets: 5 Pfoten

Ahh it’s so good to reread this series! 😀 I should have done this ages ago but for some reason I always read new books instead of HP! Well, I don’t regret that I started with my reread and I’m already looking forward to read „The Prisoner of Azkaban“. And let me tell you this: The foreboding in those books isn’t only real but also overwhelming!!! There are so many details I didn’t notice when I read it for the first time! ❤

Grace and Fury: 2 Pfoten

Okay, „Grace and Fury“ was one of the few books that actually only got two paws from me and if you know me, you also know that it’s pretty rare for me to give such a low rating. So what happened? Too many tropes, too many similarities to other already well known series, a predictable plot and unpersuasive characters. You name it! If you actually want to read more about the many reasons why I didn’t like this book, you can read my rant here! *lol*

The Dark Descent of Elizabeth Frankenstein: 4 Pfoten

And here’s another book that surprised me. In a good way of course. 😉 Mara recommended it to me at the beginning of October and I decided to give it a shot. And tell you what? This was one of the best retellings I ever read. I loved how Kiersten White wrote this and yes, this was kinda dark but I lived and breathed for it. XD All told „The Dark Descent of Elizabeth Frankenstein“ was a great Halloween read for scaredy cats like me and I can totally recommend it! 🙂

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So how was your November? Did you get a lot of reading done? Were you busy with other things? What was your favourite book? Do you have any book recommendations for „My Book List 2020“?

Talk to me and let me know!

*hugs’n’kisses*

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Review: We Are Okay (Nina LaCour)

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Rating: 5 Pfoten

”I wonder if there’s a secret current that connects people who have lost something. Not in the way that everyone loses something, but in the way that undoes your life, undoes your self, so that when you look at your face it isn’t yours anymore.”

This book was one of the most beautiful books I ever read. Not only because the writing style is amazing but also because there is so much truth in it. The truth can be beautiful, it can be bittersweet, it can be painful and excruciating, it can hurt you but it can also give you hope. The truth of “We Are Okay”? It does all those things and even more.

”No one will know if you stay in bed all day. No one will know if you wear the same sweatpants for the entire month, if you eat every meal in front of television shows and use T-shirts as napkins. Go ahead and listen to that same song on repeat until its sound turns to nothing and you sleep the winter away.”

There’s a sadness in this book, on every page, in every single line. It seeps from the pages, it’s a tangible and breathing thing. It makes it hard to pick up the book and it stays throughout the entire story. A silent and looming companion, something to be afraid of but also something that keeps you going, something that accompanies you, for better or for worse. There were so many things I could relate to and I think my personal experiences made up a big part of the story’s appeal.

”I’m just afraid that one day something’s going to catch me by surprise. Stale coffee. Squares of American cheese. Hard tomatoes, so unripe they’re white in the center. The most innocent things can call back the most terrible.”

How can anyone who hasn’t gone through loss even comprehend how hard it is to remain a living, functioning and acting part of this world? The answer is simple: They can’t. Grief is something that changes you, it turns and twists you, you might look the same on the outside but on the inside you’re shaken to your core. Once grief found you, it leaves its mark and it’s something you carry with you for the rest of your life. You can’t get rid of it and you recognize it in people that made the same experiences.

”But I know that there’s a difference between how I used to understand things and how I do now. I used to cry over a story and then close the book, and it all would be over. Now everything resonates, sticks like a splinter, festers.”

I don’t know about you, but I’m always glad for the people who never experienced such a profound loss. They still have some sort of innocence to them; they’ve never been shattered like that and don’t have to try to fit together the pieces of a puzzle they didn’t even know existed. It’s not easy to come back from this kind of grief and it doesn’t only take away your innocence, it also steals your youth.

”In the kitchen, I put a pot of water on the stove. Before the water reaches a boil, he will be here. I dropped pasta in and set the timer. Before the then minutes are up. I melted some butter. I wasn’t hungry, but I would eat it anyway, and by the time I was done, he would walk through the door and call out my name.”

*sighs* How I could relate to this part of the book. The waiting, the hoping that her grandfather would turn up. The ingrained KNOWING that he wouldn’t. That utter and deafening sense that something is wrong but you can’t do anything to make it right. You’re helpless, desperate and frantic and you just don’t know what to do. Until, well, until someone eventually confirms your biggest fears. Until someone shatters your world forever.

”And Hannah kept saving me. She saved me with never asking questions, with instead reading to me about bees and botany and evolution. She saved me with clothes she loaned me and never took back. She saved me with seats next to her in the dining hall, with quick evasions when people asked me questions I couldn’t answer, with chapters read aloud and forced trips off campus and rides to the grocery store and a pair of winter boots.”

But thankfully there are people like Hannah out there. People that watch out for you, that don’t turn away from you but embrace you with all your shattered parts. I’m pretty sure Hannah might have experienced loss too because she stuck with Marin and in my experience only people that went through it will react like that. The others? Well, those who are fortunate will have never experienced anything like it, so they’ll say how sorry they are, they’ll try to cheer you up, but when you fall into that black and endless rabbit hole of grief. Well, they’ll eventually lose interest after a few days or weeks (if you’re lucky) and then move on. Without you…

It took Marin months to speak about her loss; it took me an entire year to open up and to speak about mine. A year that changed me forever, a year I’ll never get back. I really wish I would have had this book when I was seventeen and I hope and pray that everyone who experiences the very same thing will stumble upon it. That they’ll find solace and hope in Nina LaCour’s words and that they’ll eventually find the strength to move on. Because the truth is: Life is merciless and it doesn’t pause for the living.

If I learned anything then it’s this and that you’ve to live your life like there will be no tomorrow.

Make your experiences, don’t regret anything, recognize your loss, stay true to yourself, keep on fighting, keep living, because it’s worth it. Life is so worth it and you only have one chance! Make it count! 😉

This said, I love this book with all my heart and I’ll recommend it to everyone who ever experienced loss! This, this is your book! Your voice! Your thoughts on paper! Read it and heal! ❤

„Say yes.“